Long time no see

Hello world,

First off, yes I do realise that it’s been almost two months since I updated this but life’s been slightly hectic lately.  Where to start?  Well I guess the beginning would be a good place…

 I came back to uni and moved back into the nuthouse that is McIntosh Hall.  Same building different people.  This years freshers are a somewhat odd mix.  As a general rule they aren’t the type of folk I’d hang out with…and consequently I don’t.  Well…maybe three or four of them, you guys know who you are.  Freshers week I helped out a fair bit with hall events what with being on the committee and all but otherwise I just kept myself to myself.  I’m not good with new people really, they scare me.  On the whole then, fresher’s week was just a nice easy week to do sod all in…it didn’t last.

Upon starting class the following week I had inductions.  The message of said inductions might as well have been the following:

“HERE IS YOUR OPTIMISM.  WATCH AS WE SHRED IT BEFORE YOU!  YOU GUYS ARE SO SCREWED IT’S BORDERING ON THE INSANE!  SAY GOODBYE TO A SOCIAL LIFE!”

They weren’t lying.  Since then the work has just kept on coming.  It’s seriously getting to me.  For example, on Sunday night just gone by, I didn’t sleep til 2pm the following day as I was up writing a report, followed by class.  This report was bloody HARD.  It’s some of the most complicated work I’ve ever had to do in my life.  But it got done and I slept for hours afterwards.  Tonight I’m working on a presentation that’s due in tomorrow on the glaciation of Orkney.  I have a 3000 word essay on the topic of the Devensian Ice Sheet over Scotland due in a fortnight.  I am going slowly insane.  And as if this wasn’t enough, I killed my computer.  Turns out violence and electronics don’t make a good mix.  EVER.

It’s been running slow for months so I bought a new one.  You’d think at this point “Ah well, problem solved!”  But no…far from it.  See I ordered it a week or so ago off a certain computer company that shall remain nameless at present.  When checking the status of my order I’m getting conflicting information.  All I know now is that it’s somewhere between being built and being put in a box for delivery.  Grrr.  And now my MP3 Player has died.  So I bought a new one.  A nice shiny Sony that should work…but it needs a computer with Vista to work…and all my friends have XP.  So it’s off with someone to charge up overnight.  All in all I’m extremely frustrated at the moment with work and everything going wrong.  Right now I’m blaming it on the Curse of November™.  Said Curse™ is where something goes wrong in November.  1st year of uni I realise I’m bi.  Last year I realise that I’m gay.  This year every piece of electronic hardware I own goes wrong.  I just can’t bloody win.  So I’ve spent today very stressed out and very annoyed.  God help anyone who dares piss me off as I shall smite them where they stand.#

 There are however some good things.  On Sunday, Rob will be here and I will be happy because right now he feels like the one good thing going in my life.  He makes me happy, he’s always there for me, he’s just…amazing.  He’s given me a very happy 6 months so if you’re reading this at all Rob…I love you.  I love you more than anything in the whole damn world. For other readers…feel free to vomit.  Also my computer will turn up at some point so then I can play my games on it hehehehe.  Also, Andrew and I are beginning work on a webcomic…entitled Anime & Pizza (after our now regular Sunday night anime and pizza sessions with a small group of us).  The comic will be partially based around student life here and partly based on the surreal discussions we often have.  I’m doing the scriptwriting for it while Andrew (http://dragonofwhi.wordpress.com), is doing the artwork for it since I can’t really draw for shit.  It’s in its formative stages right now so watch this space for further news on it, since we’re pretty keen to go ahead with it.

I think that’s pretty much it, I’m gonna try to update this a bit more regularly but with the demands of work and stuff I have these days, it’s not gonna be an easy task, but I’ll try. 

Have a good November for me folks…as I doubt mine’s gonna be fantastic

 Rinion Eruanna

Response to a tag and a bit more…

Thanks for this Andrew:

* The rules are:
1-post these rules
2-each person tagged must post 8 random facts about themselves
3-tags should write a journal/ blog / facebook note of these facts
4-at the end of the post 8 more persons are tagged and named
5-go to their page and leave a comment telling them they’ve been ‘tagged’

1. I never like my hair
2. I have a fear of butterflies
3. I can speak a little German
4. I don’t like potatoes
5. I have a thing for cuddly objects
6. I don’t like short hair 7
7. I like McDonalds :O
8. I don’t post on this often enough

I tag <CENSORED>

Right, now that that’s done with, back to our regular service. Sorry I’ve been away so long…oh who am I kidding, no one reads this anyway. Anyways…..

Firstly, I passed my resit. Huzzah! I’m now officially a third year honours student with all the stress and worry that comes along with it. It also means I have to do an unholy amount of maths this semester. For those of you who don’t know me phenomenally well, I have an irrational dislike of the science of numbers that stems from a God awful maths teacher in secondary school who I despised. He put me off maths for like, so hence I’m not looking forward to having to do any. But needs must so I’ll struggle through and look forward to my cartography classes, hurray!

Secondly, Rob was up for the last week. I was happy, as I am with him. I’ll leave it there unless you want graphic descriptions of manlove. If you do…I worry about you.

Finally, this will be the last blog entry I write from home for a while. I’m back at uni as of Friday, so all my blogs from then till about Christmas will be from there, so they should be a bit more interesting.

I think that’s all I have to say at the moment. Cheerio

Rinion Eruanna

Sanity restored

Sorry about the last post, I went a bit nuts last week.  Work got to me and I snapped.  I changed my leaving date to today, so now I’m finished with that dump.  Hurray!  I now have the next 3 days to complete my studying and go into St Andrews and pass my exam.  I can pass it, I think.  My studying’s been going pretty well, so I can pass this and go home.  Which is the best bit of that day.  Rob’s coming up to see me again for a week or so and that makes me VERY happy.  That thought’s been keeping me going for the last few days.

I’ve been up to nothing, except I got addicted to World of Warcraft.  I can’t play it the next couple of days, work takes priority, but my God, it’s addictive as hell.  I have a Level 14 Dwarf Warrior named Telinar, if anyone’s on it that reads this (doubtful).  Give me a message if you do though.

Right, I’ll update this in a fortnight or so.  Bye for now.

Rinion Eruanna.

Normal service has been postponed

I am going insane.  I actually think that by September 8th I will be a gibbering wreck incapable of anything except drooling and gibbering.  Why that date specifically, it’s the last day I’m working.  My revision is driving me mad at the moment so I’m ignoring it for the rest of the night and will get back to it tomorrow.  I have two weeks left and I know I can pass it but right now it’s driving me up the bloody wall.  Work still gets to me.  It’s leaving me constantly tired right now.  Every moment I’m awake I don’t want to be (no, I’m not being emo, I’m just really tired).  I can’t recuperate at this rate.  At the end I will actually just collapse into a heap on the floor and not move for a week.  Anyone (with a couple of exceptions) who asks me to do anything will be told none too politely where to shove it.

Nothing happened really this week.  I went to the pub the other night, I went to Carlisle yesterday.  Both were fun.  I’m tired, bye.

Rinion Eruanna

Pain, boredom and optimism

Spot the odd one out in the title.  Okay, so I haven’t written since my birthday.  You should know by now that I update infrequently because I’m A) busy and B) absent-minded.  Anyway, here goes.

Today, I’m in pain.  I woke up at about 11 am (I had today off work, I’ll explain in a minute) and immediately when getting up, I pulled a muscle in my neck.  I can’t really move my head to the right at the moment so everything is a pain in the…er…neck to do.  The reason I had today off work was I had a dentist’s appointment to get a filling done.  It hurt like hell.  Once again, the anesthetic didn’t take properly so it hurt.  But it’s over with and I don’t have to go back until next year, thank God.

The boredom comes from work.  I have 4 weeks left to go but I’m worried that I’ll have lost my sanity by then.  Soul-destroying is a good adjective to describe getting up at 5.30am every day to work in that fetid hellhole.  I cannot stress enough how bad it is, the English language doesn’t have enough adjectives to describe it.  The only good thing is the money, and that isn’t enough.  Thankfully I don’t have to go back there after this year, but I still have another MONTH to go.  The Green Day song “Wake Me Up When September Ends” is the most appropriate song ever at the moment, because then I’ll be back at Uni again.

The optimism comes from my revision, which is coming along swimmingly at the moment.  I’m remembering things and everything is making wonderful amounts of sense, huzzah!  I should be able to pass this and go into third year having learned my lesson – procrastination is bad mm’kay? Another week and Rob’ll be back from holiday, thank God.  Not being able to talk to him is getting to me.  Right, guess I’d better bugger off then and get some sleep or summat.  Later peeps

Rinion Eruanna

The third decade begins

Today is my 20th birthday.  Small milestone.  Spent today working as usual, then dossed about.  No change from usual.  Oh well…

I’ve been away and now I’m back

Alright, I know it’s late…AGAIN.  I forgot to update when I got back and I’ve been meaning to…honest.  I’ve just forgotten about it.  Damn my absent-mindedness.

Last week I was on holiday with Rob in London, and it was great.  Seeing Rob full stop is great, every time I’m with him I’m happy and I love him that little bit more.  I will spare you from overly mushy stuff though, as I don’t want to make you vomit.  I fell in love with London, seriously.  It’s such a vibrant city, full of life with lots to do and see.  I’m considering moving there  (or Manchester) after I graduate.  The reason for this is largely that I’m a country boy born and raised.  I’ve always lived in small rural villages my whole life, three of them now.  I hate them, there’s nothing to do and all my friends live at least 4 miles away.  The only entertainment round here is going to the pub in the next town over (the above 4 miles away).  London has so much more to do, and the transport is a lot better.  Yes, I’m aware of the downsides, more traffic, dirtier air, more crime etc, but it’d be worth it from my point of view.  This is why I’m home as little as possible, I tend to stay in St Andrews most of the time or travel to Edinburgh from time to time.  Anything to stay near civilisation and not the ned-filled hellhole that I live in.

Saw Transformers on Saturday.  OH.  MY.  GOD.  It’s now one of my favourite films.  Brilliant CGI, (Optimus Prime FTW), Shia LeBeouf wasn’t bad in it but it needed more robots (though EVERYTHING needs more robots).  It also delivered the best film quote ever, which Allan (my best friend) and I were quoting the whole day – “Bumblebee, stop lubricating that man.”  So easy to use out of context and utterly hilarious.  Stayed over at Allan’s with a couple of other friends…fell asleep before the rest of them.  I was knackered due to the train the day before which was delayed by over two hours and i didn’t get home til after midnight.  Curse you Virgin Trains!  Though it wasn’t really their fault, something to do with signals, but the train was packed so I sat on the floor for a good amount of it.  But yeah, it was good seeing folk again.

In 4 days time it’s my birthday and I turn 20 years old.  This has been bugging me for a while.  Yes, I know, I’m not that old in the grand scheme of things but for some reason 20 has some kind of significance for me.  It’s like I have to grow up now because I’m no longer a teenager, no longer a child.  I guess it’s time to stop goofing off and finally make something of myself.  Funnily enough this age coincides with junior honours where my results matter towards what I graduate with.  So I guess it’s as good a reason to finally knuckle down and walk out of uni with a high 2:1.

This part is a rant, but I feel the need to write it so here goes:

I’m sick and tired of society’s inherent intolerance towards gays.  As you all know, I have a boyfriend, who I love dearly and wouldn’t trade for the world.  But I can’t show any affection towards him in public because of the stares of people, or the abuse that some may throw at us.  It’s been my view  WHY?  It’s not fair, we’re treated differently because of the way we were born (It’s not a choice.  I certainly didn’t choose to be depressed coming to terms with it for 5 months).  Yes, I am aware that people of all sexualities are protected by law, but that doesn’t affect societies attitudes.  Now, I’m not going to go off on one about religious views as everyone is entitled to their views.  I’m not even asking you to support homosexuality.  I’m aware that some may consider it a sin, and that’s their prerogative, but can we at least get on with our lives in the same way you do.  We’re doing nothing to harm you, and yet we’re stared at us as if we had 3 heads and purple skin if we choose to hold hands in public.  I’m just sick and tired of having to hide the fact I’m in love with someone special to me.  Maybe one day things will change but when?  When I’m in my 30’s, 40’s, 50’s?  I know things are progressing, gay people have more rights and protection now than they ever have, but things are moving very slowly still.  Surely if there’s a little more love in a world filled with ever-increasing hate, then this is a good thing?  Or is love between two people of the same sex less valid than the love between two people of opposite sexes?  I guess I’m moaning a little, and some people will read this and think I’m wrong, and that’s OK.  Please, feel free to comment and disagree (though if you’re abusive I’ll delete your comment in a heartbeat).

OK, rant over.  I guess that’s it unless you really want to hear about work again.  No?  Thought not.  I’ll update this…sometime next week.  Don’t expect a specific date, I can’t give you one.  Guess it’s back to studying and Internet.  Take care people.

Rinion Eruanna

Yes, I know it’s late, I do have a life you know.

I did mean to do this on Sunday but I was busy with my life . I’ll say in a minute.

Okay so, last week. Another uneventful week of work mostly. The week went by as it usually does until Friday, which shall henceforth be known as TEH BEST FRIDAY EVAR! (misspelling intentional). First off I got paid for three weeks work, all tax-free because I’m a freeloading student, and it wiped my overdraft huzzah! Secondly, my dentists appointment was cancelled! Turns out she was ill and went home so I didn’t have to go. Though I now have an appointment in August, which means I get a day off work , there is a silver lining to all this then. Thirdly, I got drunk again on Magners that night, which was a good laugh. God I love that stuff, it’s magical! Seriously, it is the nectar of the Gods themselves. Then I stayed at Al’s house overnight, which was fun. I stayed til late on the next day playing computer games, hurrah!

Sunday was more of a mixed bag really. I spent most of the day in Carlisle playing Laser Quest (which I won ) and saw Shrek . It was great hanging round with all my friends from back here again but there was a cloud hanging over my heads. I am currently studying for my resit in September as I had a panic attack during one of my exams in May. My acceptance into Honours depends on the grade for this exam and I know I can pass it but as usual my ability to motivate myself to do it. This has set my parents moaning at me and making snidey comments about it. However, after confronting them over it, they backed down. As did I, give and take and all

My new phone arrived today, Sony Ericsson K800i.  It is teh sex, absolutely fucking gorgeous.  Though not as absolutely fucking gorgeous as my boyfriend, who I’ll be with this time next week .  One week and I’m on holiday, thank God for that.

Guess I’ll write on Sunday then, see you then.  Have fun.

Rinion Eruanna

This is going to be repetitive but….

    Guess what?  This week has been largely the same as last week!  HURRAY!

I’m kidding, the monotony is bloody awful.  My job still sucks, but at least the weekend’s been good.

Saturday I worked in the morning which was crap, but I was secure in the knowledge that it was the last Saturday I’d be working for 4 whole weeks , so I can sleep in those morning.  In the afternoon I went to Annan to see my friend Mat and dragged Allan along with me.  We had a lot of fun and got reasonably drunk.  Well Mat and I did, Al’s teetotal.  I also discovered a liking for Magners Irish Cider, which tastes, and looks, rather like Lucozade.  Weird but does the job, 2 litres of the stuff later and I was quite tipsy/drunk.

Today, I was at my friend Simone’s 20th birthday party.  It was a good laugh, we played childish party games and had a great big waterfight in her garden on a trampoline.  The end result being 7 very wet young adults all laughing their heads off and finding this the funniest thing ever.  It was a nice change and something fun that rarely seems to happen around here.  I hate living back home, there’s not much to do, thank God I’m going to London in a couple of weeks.

Next weekend is another friends 20th so we’re going out for it, hurray!  But on Friday I have the dentist .  I hate dentists, they always give me fillings or do something painful.  Doctors are fine, as are opticians.  Dentists are evil, and I’d rather not go but hey ho.  My parents won’t give me that option and it’s probably not a good idea.  Bugger, more pain for me .  Otherwise it’s another week of studying and working and not a lot else.  Maybe something exciting will happen or, more probably, it won’t.  I might post something mid week, a little rant that I have occasionally and I’d like comments though I doubt anyone reads this TBH.  We’ll see.

Have a good one guys,

Rinion Eruanna.

Slow week

This week has been slow. I hate living in rural land, there’s nothing to do. And to cap it all off I’ve been working all week. I work Monday to Friday from 6am to 3pm doing manual labour. I make roof tiles for a living you see when I’m home over the summer. For this I get paid a stupid amount of money, £1250 a month plus bonuses and the tax man gets precisely none of it. However there are things I hate about my job:

• The hours. 6am? I have trouble getting up at 8am for my 9am lectures.
• The work. It’s heavy work and I end up sweaty and covered in shit at the end of every day. Plus my back aches a lot.
• Some of the people. Not all of them, some of them are fine. There are a couple who do my bloody head in though.
• The Cloak Verge plant…or as I call it “The Shed of Evil™”. It’s crap and the work is god awful.

This is the downside to being a student. I have to fund a large chunk of it myself which means doing this god awful job for 3 and a half months.

Thursday night I went to the pub with my friends in Lockerbie (I live about 4 miles away). Unfortunately I was the only male there in the company of 4 women. So I spent a goodly chunk of the evening looking utterly perplexed as I didn’t have a clue what they were talking about. Stuart would’ve came…but decided he couldn’t be arsed. For this he will pay dearly. Whoever said gay men like hanging around with women and discussing girly things has never met me. I was so confused…

Last night I went to the pub in Annan to catch up with Mat and Andrew. They’re friends of mine from Uni who live 20 minutes away, which is weird. Was good seeing them again and I got quite tipsy on 3 pints of cider. I’m gonna hope it was due to not drinking in a while and not that I’m the uber-lightweight from hell.

The best part of this week was getting my holiday sorted out. I’m going to London for a few days in July with Rob. I’ve never been to London before so that alone is going to be cool. What makes it better is that I get to be with Rob for a few days XD. Shockingly enough this makes me very, very happy. I don’t get to see him as often as I’d like to so I try to make the most of what time we get together.

Well that’s it for another week in Rinion’s world.  I’m trying to update this once a week I guess. If something comes up otherwise I’ll post it. Have fun folks.

Rinion Eruanna